The break up happened “crème”. Thought I’d miss it. The little habits, the temporary feeling of comfort, the immediate gratification, the presence in the little moments of loneliness, the support in the difficult times, that little breath… Plus, I felt a sense of belonging, especially on construction sites. Like in high school, we always have a dedicated corner, a small place away, strangely very clean, where people who seem to matter have a discussion. Well, we were both there. but from the start i knew we weren’t meant to be together I’m already stingy And my god, this relationship is on the budget. Even though I introduced it very early, as a teenager, to all my cousins (some of whom are still deeply in love), I wasn’t really dedicated to the relationship until 20 years later. Even I would say, I really invested myself around 2021. After the Pandemic. When things started to get really hard professionally speaking and 2022 I had to part ways with my other favorite. Yes. Health has separated us. It started from the beginning, the cough, the mental weight on judgements (justified), and then it’s complicated to hide a relationship from your loved ones. When small wounds, types of tumors with stink appeared more frequently in the nostrils, I thought I was a naturalist treating cancer with essential oils. Kinda like when you metastasis and the Dadarabe prescribes you plants. You know the origin of your wounds, but you are looking elsewhere. I laughed in spite of myself. I knew I was messing around. I had to let it go. And then there’s me having the worst Christmas ever, weeks after breaking up because I must still smell it somewhere. Or maybe the dust of pollution has attacked my already weakened immunity. A few days of rambling, coughing till I can’t breathe, everything is inflamed. Still had to work I think it was the worst. I am getting better. I’m just resting. of course I still have work. I quit smoking cigarettes .